hey i am 21. pretty chill person. i try and do things that will stay true to my values. love to sing and be my crazy self. funny, a thinker, and just in general a lovely person. Just get to know me and judge me by my character not what you see.
i have not done one of these bad boys in forever. Unfortunately if you do read these random rants of mine they are usually never good and yet here is another one of me just typing out my frustrations.
1. I really can not stand when i text someone to hang out and they give no response. Mother fucker you can say no and i wont ask anymore. Yea i should understand that you responding is a good enough answer but when i see you in person you say lets hang out more..WTF kind of fake ass shit is that. In all honestly you are lucky i am nice ass person cause fuckers i would call you out in a heart beat.
2. I seriously wonder who are really my friends in college from the people i meet. I know i have found a few people who i’m always with chilling and having a grand old time just laughing and doing stupid shit together. I know they got my back. But i wonder for the other people i have met. By the way lots of people act and shit i really am starting to think we are just acquaintances and nothing more. Like makes me wonder why the fuck i even met you.
3. So i did an internship for an org and it was fun while i was in the moment and met a lot of great ass people whose hearts are as big as the moon. Listening to their dreams and aspirations for the future gave me such a rush to know that these people are going to make a difference in the future. But now that all the time we spent together is came to a close i now get to see who really wanted to get to know me and understand my struggles, pains, and triumphs. Unfortunately it literally is like a tiny bit maybe 5 out of the group of 15. Maybe i was just seen as a comic relief and nothing more. Whenever i show up to say hello and pop my face in i always sense a huge tension of sorts which makes it sooo fucking awkward. Like we are suppose to have a sense of family within that group once we left those walls and went out into the world….hate to say it but def not happening. makes sense as to why i have kinda stepped away and let them do their own thing now a days.
4. And the last thing i will end the rant with is the sense of curiosity…as to what is going to happen in the future. there is so much that i want to do in life and do for a living that i sometimes wonder if i should just do those things. But unfortunately i have no idea if that will be good for me in the future, especially if i’m trying to have a family and have a lifestyle of wanting to travel the world. FUCK sometimes growing up is a little too much. I just sometimes wish that life would just slow down like how i was as a kid with no care in the world. BUT that is not growing up soo i guess just going to have to deal with it.
thank you for reading my random rant! probs will have one coming soon about my girl situations and maybe might throw in some other random news about myself lots of people dont know about